Your feeble whimpers ring in my ears,
As I shut myself to the muffled moans.
I had sworn I would behave,
That I wouldn’t touch you again.
But you always let me down,
One time, every time.
Your negligence cost me my patience,
Your indolence flared my temper.
The ensuing violence I couldn’t restrain,
Sparing the rod wasn’t my approach.
Trust me, on each occasion, I would promise myself,
Never again, not anymore.
It broke my heart, I would secretly weep,
I would apologize to you, in my heart.
Myriads of words I would frame,
Each time your eyes welled up.
If only I had hummed those phrases to you,
If only I had shown my regret to you.
Before I chastised you all over again,
And you resolved to fly away, never to return.
Oh child, how I wish I had accepted you,
Valued you more than your grades.
Can I open my heart to you for once,
Deliver you those letters undelivered, say I’m Sorry.